woke up this morning, went on a long bike ride loveland bike trail style with my mother. weird, for a while when i woke up a few minutes ago, i thought i had woken up for the day... yea, my memory is still fuzzy. this is so weirdness! when am i going to return to 100% memory status? when am i going to finally get back normal? well, what is normal anyway? i just don't fucking know anymore. well, fuck it all. what is really going on? what fucking day is it anyway? i think i am just supposed to be falling towards the idea of not caring, and only worrying about what day it REALLY is. though, it is frustrating. at least i don't have to worry about having a job...

i walked into work on this last friday on time. ready to work, but as i am getting to my window, my boss came up to me and told me that the human resources guy wanted to see me. a lump in my throat forms... and yea, no more job for me. they fired my ass because i called off too many times when i had a major concussion. i couldn't even remember what day of the week it was and they expected me to come in and perform financial transactions with thousands of other people's money? what? this shit is illegal, and i still cannot believe they fired me.

i just don't know what to do. but now i have lots of time to figure that one out. and someone to help me!