again,

The Other shall be of not far away propensity of density forthwith of mind-all and mind-will, the First will be of giving light and love to the all.

this came to me while i was waking up this lovely morning. i am going to think about this and get back at it later today.

love to the all...

AND although slipping farther away from what is yesterday, i still find days full of Daze.
AND although despite all the streams of bad luck and let downs, good things keep happening that make more of an impact than the stupid little people and things: although i try not to let it all get to me too much, i am smiling a big one and i will be for daze to come. nothing has proved to be permanent in my universe, and i cannot decipher which reason why: my amnesia throw-backs, or if my life has been indeed going through change at a faster pace than usual. and it's not like i can ask someone else's trusted advice, the people i would usually be talking to have fallen off the planet or something to that effect. maybe it is the weather? maybe it is my constant asking of 'what fucking day is it?' maybe i have forgotten too many days in a row to shower? hopefully these and other burning questions will be answered in the highly anticipated days to come in the life of DRee.

using the thick, clear plastic tape that will probably fall off in about two weeks, i taped up heavy black garbage bags on my five single-paned windows up here in the bedroom, making it a cave capable of a little bit more of warmness to Enjoy. Azyah doesn't seem to mind the cold at all: she likes to put on her Sponge Bob Square Pants gloves and construct trains made out of pillows, chairs, and blankets.

well, back to it again,
The other shall be of not far away propensity of density forthwith of mind-all mind-will...

Propensity- an often intense natural inclination or preference. what a great word to be included in a part of a phrase coming to me while in a half awake-and-sleep state. It was a really cool morning, and these words, although i couldn't get a pen in time to get all of them down onto a piece of paper, were very bright and strong, repeating in different ways throughout my consciousness echoes.
mind-all mind-will... to will your mind to be mindful of all, having compassion for all in some sort of sense.
and as for 'the other' phrase, i am seeing what was the picture in my head, but i am not too clear as to what it means. there were two ways being talked about in my vision, perhaps tonight both will make themselves more apparent. Really, i just need to think about this more. Well, i probably just need to fall asleep whilst thinking about it.