love conquers all things negative within the understandings between creatures of the universe

So, I wrote today a summary.

I am at Lunken Airport playground; Azyah is playing with another little boy. I am sitting at a green park bench. The paint is chipping off in big splotches and my eyes are wandering around. I cannot keep focus very easily, I've been up all night doing things but now that I look upon the recent night's past, nothing in particular comes to mind. (mashed potatoes)

Although, the events of the artist house spin around the most often. To be around others who create art is always a blessing, and I wish this could be an everyday occurrence for my self. I do believe this is possible through conscious influence, however, I have not been walking down that road for very long at all. Yes, this new, artistic way of thinking is only about a month old. For about two weeks before my head injury I felt unhappy and stuck, discouraged by events and people's actions all around my city, as well as the United States in general. But, I was not able to say that exact statement out loud, my head has been conditioned to keep on doing what I was doing, no matter what. Pay the bills, work as much as you can, and believe that the organization I was giving my energy to was indeed a somewhat compassionate, if not at the very least, a caring one I could feel good about giving my time towards . A financial institution set up as a non-profit in order to better serve the members and employees, to boldly go where the other banks of our present times are too shitty to go.
Well, these flirtations proved to be wrongfully understood and I feel that I was forced outside the organization because they needed to hire on lesser paid people, all under the guise that it (the firing) was indeed my fault. Oh well, it's definitely the institution's loss, and beside, I have been enjoying myself for weeks now. It has given me a chance to step back into my head and figure out just what exactly I want to accomplish with myself and for my daughter. Although, I am still unclear as to how to get to the things I want most dearly for us both. I can see what I want, but I'm not too sure as to how to get there. It's like I need a road map to somewhere I am already very acquainted with. Well, maybe that is the problem- Thinking I am acquainted with something I have never truly touched. But nonetheless, I am familiar with the desire. Maybe because of a slight taste? Or maybe none or all this is true, it's all just a way back to the way back the way I was before. But no, it can't be- there is a before, and there is a now, at the very least a different mind-set than was in place before. This I do know, if not indeed what day of the week it is, I do know that I have changed, and I also know that my old way of living was not conductive of health and well being of my soul, myself, my daughter, and my family.
In order to consciously change myself and my surroundings, I needed to forget everything I know, start from scratch, and do it differently this time around no matter what. Life is too important to be waste on not concentrating on what is important, and to take every step with undeniable love, and to boldly go where the other banks of our present times are too shitty to go. It's time to do THIS differently. We must all get together collectively and talk about a way to live together again. in peace.
Rough times are here and in the immediate future only if you let them get the better of you and your family. Keep what is the best aspect of our colorful community held high and sacred- LOVE conquers all things negative within the understandings between creatures of the universe.