..... but alas, it is in fact him, and yes, I made some bad decisions, ingested many a weird and questionable substance, and forgot to brush my hair for a few years. Well, i had been forgetting the brush since new year's eve 1998-99, but that is beside the Real point: I am extremely thankful I have made it this far. Some words that come to mind when I try to describe how I made it through, or better yet, words that help say what I am today that has allowed my lucky ass to make it this far:
Healthy- bad health is not an option. We are in control of what and how we feel.
Crazy- I do not understand why a person would not want to go through life without laughing at anything possible or breaking out into the chorus of 'Bohemian Rhapsody' while waiting in the checkout line at K-Mart. But I was talking to this one guy at a coffee shop in Cincinnati and he said K-Mart sucks, but he buys all his white Haynes his way undies there. won't go anywhere else. But really, Laughter is indeed the best medicine and helps the whole 'Healthy' thing be around in full effect. The two go hand in hand. Health means a happy soul and body.
Questionable- Dude. don't take some one's words for anything. we all know this. but what i do is take the person's word, put it in a little file in back, take it out later and go over it with other people, or research it while i am sitting on the pot, driving, or walking to get change for the laundry. We all don't know the whole truth, just little pieces. We must all work together if we are going to get anywhere. it's not going to be easy, but it will be fun to figure out who knows what, and how they know this and that, why they don't know something else.
Three- everything is numbers. everything can graphed in some way. everything is fractals. and fractals are fucking amazing. life is beautiful and and i am in awe every single day. every day i have a thought about how incredible it all is and the way it all works out is perfect, everything is as it should be at all times, and everything is now and forever and was.
Creative- macgyver. or ninja, however you want to say it.
Bike- riding a bike is one of my most bestest most favorite things to do and it has been since i was a very little girl. the sensation of a fast heart beat while floating through the lovely space..... the pedals moving.... the chain making the tink tink tin k... my eyes are watering, and i turn my head to hear the more still wind as i cut through, a stark contrast to the loud air whistle when my head was looking straight ahead... love it. Living without a bike is not an option i take.
Thelonious Sphere Monk- from a journal entry i wrote for an english class a few years ago:
Healthy- bad health is not an option. We are in control of what and how we feel.
Crazy- I do not understand why a person would not want to go through life without laughing at anything possible or breaking out into the chorus of 'Bohemian Rhapsody' while waiting in the checkout line at K-Mart. But I was talking to this one guy at a coffee shop in Cincinnati and he said K-Mart sucks, but he buys all his white Haynes his way undies there. won't go anywhere else. But really, Laughter is indeed the best medicine and helps the whole 'Healthy' thing be around in full effect. The two go hand in hand. Health means a happy soul and body.
Questionable- Dude. don't take some one's words for anything. we all know this. but what i do is take the person's word, put it in a little file in back, take it out later and go over it with other people, or research it while i am sitting on the pot, driving, or walking to get change for the laundry. We all don't know the whole truth, just little pieces. We must all work together if we are going to get anywhere. it's not going to be easy, but it will be fun to figure out who knows what, and how they know this and that, why they don't know something else.
Three- everything is numbers. everything can graphed in some way. everything is fractals. and fractals are fucking amazing. life is beautiful and and i am in awe every single day. every day i have a thought about how incredible it all is and the way it all works out is perfect, everything is as it should be at all times, and everything is now and forever and was.
Creative- macgyver. or ninja, however you want to say it.
Bike- riding a bike is one of my most bestest most favorite things to do and it has been since i was a very little girl. the sensation of a fast heart beat while floating through the lovely space..... the pedals moving.... the chain making the tink tink tin k... my eyes are watering, and i turn my head to hear the more still wind as i cut through, a stark contrast to the loud air whistle when my head was looking straight ahead... love it. Living without a bike is not an option i take.
Thelonious Sphere Monk- from a journal entry i wrote for an english class a few years ago:
21 September 2005
Spherical Sense
It all happens very quickly, so I will try to explain, it only happens for a blink. So very suddenly I feel the serenity of the water in front of me while the wind blows through my head, I feel alive, like a sting on my tongue, I feel a rush through my veins, and I start to fly. I smile too big for my head with my eyes rolling back all the way to the first time I heard this unforgettable, so sweet and lovely. I have heard a beautiful song, and my mind gets prickly as a certain phrase is played, blushing. I feel blessed, to say the least, and smarter for having heard it the way I did.
At that specific point when I scientifically listen to the way a song is constructed- to be conscious of what each person is contributing and experience the way they weave it together and what they are saying to their audience- is a religious acquaintance. As I listen to a live recording of Thelonious Monk and company with audience coughs and hums in the background noise my eyes are intoxicated. If power is the ability to make change, then his musical note choices have caused me to listen more carefully than I did before, and I regret that I cannot physically shake his hand today and say thanks for the help. He is dead, but he is influencing change in the present and not just the past; musicians today are still carrying on what he helped start in New York. I hope I can be proficient enough artistically one day to do the same.
Spherical Sense
It all happens very quickly, so I will try to explain, it only happens for a blink. So very suddenly I feel the serenity of the water in front of me while the wind blows through my head, I feel alive, like a sting on my tongue, I feel a rush through my veins, and I start to fly. I smile too big for my head with my eyes rolling back all the way to the first time I heard this unforgettable, so sweet and lovely. I have heard a beautiful song, and my mind gets prickly as a certain phrase is played, blushing. I feel blessed, to say the least, and smarter for having heard it the way I did.
At that specific point when I scientifically listen to the way a song is constructed- to be conscious of what each person is contributing and experience the way they weave it together and what they are saying to their audience- is a religious acquaintance. As I listen to a live recording of Thelonious Monk and company with audience coughs and hums in the background noise my eyes are intoxicated. If power is the ability to make change, then his musical note choices have caused me to listen more carefully than I did before, and I regret that I cannot physically shake his hand today and say thanks for the help. He is dead, but he is influencing change in the present and not just the past; musicians today are still carrying on what he helped start in New York. I hope I can be proficient enough artistically one day to do the same.
Short- i love being my height of four feet, eleven inches and three fourths of an inch. not quite five feet tall. this has helped me get into many concerts for free. hippies are tall.
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